My past is a place where I visit from time to time, but I donāt stay long anymore. I donāt ask for an invitation to visit. I show up uninvited to remind it of just a few things.
My past told me I couldnāt become an athlete, because I was lazy… undetermined and unfocused. I ring the doorbell of my past, and when it opens the door… it now sees the face of grit, hard work, discipline, and eyes that see long into my dreams and goals.
My past told me I couldnāt overcome the bottle. That Jameson and Vodka would destroy me long before a pair of running shoes could.
I ring the doorbell and when my past answers, I say remember me? Now it sees the girl who hasnāt touched a drink in 5 years. Who put down the bottle to pick up her self-worth, and found self-love again.
My past told me I couldnāt make a difference: “Youāll never be an example, or a leader. Youāll never succeed.”
I ring the doorbell and when it opens the door… my past sees all of you. It sees your kind words and support. It sees us sharing all our achievements together.
My past asks me if I would like to sit and stay awhile… maybe get reacquainted. I politely decline. As I leave, I turn around and say:
“You thought you would break me. You thought you could keep me prisoner, hold me in the dark, never to be rescued.”
As I shut the door, the beautiful light shining down upon me pierces that dark place. The past quietly closes the door with nothing left to say.
Find your willingness to be better. Do not let people, places or things hold your happiness… they will drop it every time. Find your light and burn that bitch so bright, you light up the world šāØāļø.
Now let’s get this run done āļø.
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And I donāt really care if nobody else believes…
’cause I still got a lot of FIGHT left in me.ā
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Today is simple. Wake up and do your best. We all need support, we all need encouragement. We need laughter, and appreciation for others. We need help from time to time, we need acceptance and humbleness to be teachable and to grow.
We need a few good friends, we need more sincerity and a lot less posed fakeness.
I have crawled from the depths of hell out of my alcohol addiction. I have lost 90 pounds not by sheer luck but by discipline, and hard days, mixed with both tears of deflated failure and of joy.
I have learned how to negotiate running as my beautiful outlet for this batshit crazy world I live in, for the toxic people and negative people I must deal with, and for the continued benefits of my health and well being.
Donāt let anyone tell you how to tie your laces. Only you know where youāve beenā¦ where you areā¦ and where you are heading. As for meā¦ today I slip on my headbandā¦ sip the rocket fuelā¦ smileā¦ and go celebrate that I get to wake up and do what I love.
Why not wake up today and decide today is the day you change your life?
Why not wake up today and decide today is the day you cut the excuses?
Why not wake up today and decide you are going put to rest doubt and fear?
Why not wake up today and forget the scale, forget the harsh screams of others and just be wonderfully you?
Why not wake up today and smile and wave at all them haters and naysayers?
Today is yours. The work is hard, and the road may be long, but the journey… every paved and unpaved mile, will teach you something valuable. Set out to find gratitude in each mile.
Have acceptance in each setback, and have hope for every victory yet to come. Someone is watching you. Show them kindness, teach them love, and let them in on your successes.
Bitterness need not apply. Now letās go smash some pavementā¦ after all, it is WEDNESDAYā¼ļø WHY NOT?
Today someone is waking up heartbroken thinking they will never love again.
Today someone will wake up hungover from the poison they put in their body, thinking recovery isnāt possible. Today someone will wake up at the hand of a narcissist feeling deflated and broken.
Today someone will wake up without a job as the aftermath of yesterdayās board meeting. Someone will battle anxiety and depression. Someone will closet eat. Someone will gamble. Someone will struggle with unfaithfulness or unfairness.
Today is also the day someone will hear the birds for the first time in a while. Today someone will draw the shades open and let the light in after decades. Today someone will feel hope and comfort. Today someone will be cured of an insidious disease.
Today someone will stop and pick a wildflower. Today someone will feel the warmth of the sun.
We are not stuck. We are not hopeless. We need not be afraid. We are warriors. Tuesdays are for morning runs, and coffee shops. For telling a friend you love them and for appreciating that even when the wildflowers think no one sees their beauty… I doš.
āI hope you are blessed with a heart like a wildflower. Strong enough to rise again after being trampled on, tough enough to weather even the worst of the summer storms, and able to grow and flourish even in the most broken places.ā ~ ng
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As I reached for my mug today and read the word courage, I was quickly reminded of what this means to me.
Every moment in life is a chance to pin courage on ourselves.
We continue to be testedā¦ and when you are, say no and tolerate nothing less than what brings you peace and happiness.
We continue to be sculptedā¦ and when you are, let the clay take the form of nothing less than what brings you awareness and stability.
We continue to be confronted by all the people, places, and things that leech upon us to suck the life out of usā¦ and when you are, tolerate nothing less than what offers you good character and integrity.
Life will always test us. When you are reminded of this, remember that you are not required to please, settle, tolerate, accept, nor deposit anything that does match your goals, wellness, priorities, dreams, and blueprint.
Take your courageā¦ pin it, share it, send it, save it, be it, keep itā¦ but never lose sight of how you got it.
You have one lifeā¦ one chanceā¦ one dream to leave a legacy. How you wake up and act today will set the stage for your life tomorrow.
Do I have regrets? Yes.
Do I stumble with my choices sometimes? Absolutely.
Do I know that I will never allow certain people, places, or things to be responsible for the detrimental navigation of my own happiness? You bet your ass I do.
Today is my day and yoursā¼ļø Donāt politely tell this world who you areā¦ SHOW THEM.
I promise you someone is watchingā¤ļø.
We have a choice, we have a say, and we determine who we will becomeā¦ amen and amen!
How easy is it to devalue ourselves? Sometimes I must remind myself just how good I am doing in this moment. Itās so easy to devalue even the smallest of accomplishments. Do you occasionally allow yourself to feel less than?
Have you let the people, places and things that lowered your frequency for joyful living to infiltrate through tiny cracks of self-doubt?
Ask yourself todayā¦ did you try your best? Are you making small consistent changes for the betterment of your mind and health?
Do I lose myself from time to time? Absolutely.
Do I know that despite my inner demons trying to divert me to a place of pain and uneasinessā¦ my inner warrior will steady my hand and keep me on the road to peace, health and gratitude? You bet do!
Today, I showed up for me.
Love yourself when no one is watching. Love yourself when you think you canāt take anymoreā¦ love yourself when youāre laughing through wonderful moments or crying through the trials.
Show up for youā¦ because we are all working to become a better version of ourselves.
The best is yet to comeā¦ for me and for you.
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